R.I.P. Michael Jackson

I was watching Transformers 2 at the cinema when my boyfriend Paul got a text from his friend saying "Apparently Michael Jackson Has Died" Paul then whispered to me this info, i wasnt really sure how to react at first, i couldnt quite believe it so i carried on watching the film. Couldnt get back into the film though, my mind kept wandering towards Michael, trying to convince myself it wasnt true. "Stars like Michael Jackson dont die" I was saying to myself.
We left the cinema about 12:30ish am, When i got home i put on the News channel immediately, the headlines hit me, 'Michael Jackson confirmed DEAD!' Couldnt be any clearer really, but i still refused to be believe it.
I couldnt be true, the star that i grew up with, the king of pop, MICHAEL JACKSON cant die! He's invincible, Hes been through so much and survived, then out of the blue, getting ready for his 02 shows in London, he dies.
Even now i cant quite believe, doesnt at all feel real.
Its never nice when a celebrity dies (well for anyone really) its in the News everytime turn on the TV, in the News Papers, the Magazine, This is by far the worst for me.
I grew up listening to Michael Jackson, I had many Michael Jackson related things, Posters, Dolls, Necklaces, T-Shirts, Magazine Articles, Videos.
To be honest, (and this may sound a bit OTT, but its truly how i feel) its like losing a part of my childhood, and i know his music will always be there, along with the memories but its still not going to be the same.
Remember when you were younger and you used play families with your friends, you'd imagine the perfect house, perfect job, then you'd have that famous husband that made all your friend and their fans jealous, well my "imaginary" husband during those games was always Michael Jackson.
I always thought i would get to meet him and see him play live just once in my lifetime, i was devastated when they sold out, but to be quite honest i would have paid the extortionate amount of money ebay sellers were asking for. Every payday i would say to myself, "i'll buy tickets next pay day" I could never afford it next payday, i just always thought i would get tickets eventually, He was playing 50 shows after all. Now i never will.
Thats the bit that upsets me most, i know now i will NEVER see him live, but if he was still alive and i never got to see him, it wouldnt matter, he's still alive, theres still that hope of seeing one of his shows or running into him in the street or whatever.
Its a very surreal time at the moment with this news, he's on every channel, ever news paper, every magazine, there're music artists dedicating songs to him. Every music channel has Michael Jackson videos one after the other, all day and all night.
Its really nice (dont think nice is the right word, comforting maybe?) to see that so many people are touched and saddened by his death, when there were so many people slating him about the allegations made against him.
He was such an amazing musician, and person, for everything he has done for the world, and the people in it. He wanted to heal the world and make a change, and he really did.
People say Legends never die, Michael IS a legend and his music will live on forever.
My thoughts go out to his Family and Friends.
R.I.P. Michael. <3